"So you become secret keepers, even in division, even in betrayal." ... "I wasn't protecting my ex. I was protecting my peace."
This is so perfect.
"I’ve never had such confidence in my ability to figure things out. I am indefatigable, I am crush-proof, I am relentless. The years go on and I only get stronger. Bad things happen and I keep going until I barely remember how bad those things were. Bad things happen and I give them value, build on them with new bricks. This is how I want to age, increasingly positive that time will keep making me more vivid, more bright. That my light will never go out."
... and, I really, really needed these words today. I've been up and down, currently clawing my way up from a low-low, and hearing this birdsong from up where the light is, is just what I needed to hear. Thank you for pulling these words from the ether and scrawling them in the sand where I could find them.
hugs if you want them, and happy birthday! 48 was a good year <3
"My experience resulted in an emotional apocalypse that tore my whole personhood back to the support beams"
Yes. This. It was like this for me too. And it was 12 years ago and I kept going and I love my life now.
Thank you for writing and sharing this, it's good to know other people did this too.
I think it's so valuable for us to see each other, and for those trapped in bad situations to see what is possible when you make another choice. 💛
"So you become secret keepers, even in division, even in betrayal." ... "I wasn't protecting my ex. I was protecting my peace."
This is so perfect.
"I’ve never had such confidence in my ability to figure things out. I am indefatigable, I am crush-proof, I am relentless. The years go on and I only get stronger. Bad things happen and I keep going until I barely remember how bad those things were. Bad things happen and I give them value, build on them with new bricks. This is how I want to age, increasingly positive that time will keep making me more vivid, more bright. That my light will never go out."
... and, I really, really needed these words today. I've been up and down, currently clawing my way up from a low-low, and hearing this birdsong from up where the light is, is just what I needed to hear. Thank you for pulling these words from the ether and scrawling them in the sand where I could find them.
hugs if you want them, and happy birthday! 48 was a good year <3
Thank you! And it helps me to know this helps you. I hated writing this but I felt like I needed to get it out anyway.
Writing as exorcism. I get it! LOL